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The second day I do the pass of listening at the morning, and it brings wonderful state of introduction to this world, something like tonus but with delayed speed of my body, all my actions during the day are slow but exact and successful. The dreams at night became brighter, Thank you for this tool on our way to Freedom. I’m happy that we all are together.
Hello friends,
I did not have a partner when the class started. I privately sent a message to Cleargreen to see if they had anyone else who needed a partner. I also put a message out to the group. I got a partner for the exercise that I could relate my experience to. It was a smooth transition from “no partner” to “partnered”. I really appreciated that. I was able to share with my partner privately during the webinar.
When recalling habitual communication cycles with other people I came up with a petty tyrant that I have to work with at my job. (See THE EAGLES GIFT by Carlos Castaneda). See also: http://www.yourjourney.net/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=13
I was able to see that the specific tyrant that I have at my work-a-day world jobsite is a product of an earthly realm, and that the vices available to bodily existence on an earthly plane are a tyrant’s stock-in-trade. Above the earthly realm the dreamer’s world is eternal and boundless…, there, the tyrant (in this case) is without his power. I became as big as the Earth itself and I saw my tyrant as an ember in space; groundless without me. Like a firefly. I realize I am the power – I give the power to the tyrant at my choosing. I know very well what to do. I felt light, energized, and optimistic towards the future with this vision.
After the event I went outside to see the plants in my yard. I see them every day and help them and admire them all. I remember Nyei saying we should “ask for permission on whether communication was agreed to or not”. I liked this; it is good manners and appealed to me as a proper way to address friends. She also said to look for indications of communication intent from plants or trees also…
There are two trees in my back yard of the same age. They are two big pine trees. One of them was duller than the other. I could tell then that something was not quite right with one of them. That tree was retracted from reaching its perceptions out into the environment as if something had happened to it.
I knew then what it was. This tree had not gotten over the damage caused to it from a lot of its branches being cut off to allow the former owner of my apartment to receive more sunlight onto the deck area. I put my arm around the tree and told it this would not happen anymore to it as long as I was living there. It would not be harmed. There was something exchanged there. The intent was shared and I got a lighter feeling from the tree. When I touch the tree with my attention now it is as if I get a sigh of relief from the tree. The tree knows I am not the former apartment dweller that caused harm to it, and that I am a friend who will not, and does not want to see any harm come to it from anyone else while I can help it. I feel real good about getting into communication with this being. Wish I had done it sooner, but can only say it took this exercise through Cleargreen’s Webinar for me to realize it, and I am glad it did.
Thank-you Cleargreen! – (and thank-you from my tree also.)
It was a lot of fun doing the Webinar. I very much enjoyed being in the company of so many enlightened dreamers; those who seek the truth and venture diligently as they can a path with heart.
All the best…, and all the rest.
In peace,
Brad G
Dear Brad and Tree Friend–Thank you! You are fortunate to know each other! Some food for thought for Brad: Is it possible in that non-earthly realm that the “tyrant” is also not a tyrant? And is he mirroring any qualities to you that you also have, or once had in some form? with affection, Cleargreen
Nice. I didn’t expect the feedback. I at first felt like: “How dare anyone question my self-righteousness!” But, yes; it is very interesting to me of course now that I look at it from that angle “… in that non-earthly realm that the “tyrant” is also not a tyrant?” The dark scenario of my having this person for a tyrant shriveled up like a scab after I looked at in this way; a fester on the body dried up and nearly gone now, a thing of the past.
I have had nearly exact identical behavior to the tyrant! I found this really fascinating. I see colors, and the color of the tyrant was so much the same as myself – so much so that it was like a mirror to me – that I could not see as a mirror; that I saw as something else, and so ignored its very existence. It took someone asking about it, as yourself just did, to cut it like a razor down the middle. Thank-you!
I inherited this quality of the tyrant from my mother from the early years of my childhood all the way through to having lived in my parent’s house. My mother inherited her personality from her early childhood through her mother. We are both intensely over-attentive, and it seems, auto-geared to covertly and forcibly, control social situations we find ourselves in. For me this comes from a deep fear. It is the source of my shyness, a flaw in my personality; that, I am relieved to say, I am gaining ground on through my recapitulation.
When I drank alcohol or smoked pot on a regular basis this type of behavior would manifest itself compounded. This tyrant at my job currently likes to drink and smoke meth-amphetamine, a powerful street drug. – But after I look at it closely; with his age, and with his background, I could have likely been doing the same thing…, and may not have even come out on top of the heap as well as he has been able to. We are both still very much the same in this regard I see. He is also his mother’s son…, and she, her mother’s daughter.
I feel relief in my breast, and serenity. I am confident I will turn the scenario from a negative one to a positive one for myself. (I already have just now.) After seeing this person in this new light, I will now do something for this guy by helping him with my own experience. It will be an indirect help but will be mountains better than driving him towards a cliff edge over and over every day. I had been driving him towards a destructive end as I thought Don Juan had done with his petty tyrant. But that took a great deal of attention, and I can do so much better.
Don Juan was really following a path with heart with the tyrant. – It is so much easier! I can now thank him for helping me see so much of my own self! (I don’t know that I will, but I might still.) If the tyrant causes his own end then, so be it. – I will be putting my attention towards this path with heart. – Oh! I had a twang in my heart just now, a sense of loss! – I will have to go out and find another tyrant after all of this… What will I do!? (Smiles inside.)
It is OK to take a little vacation, just for a little while anyway.
Thanks again.
Love
I agree that its a soothing way to begin a day. I’m fascinated by the way my auditory attention gets involved; not hearing but listening. There is something more palpable with listening attention than attention with the eyes; perhaps because its slower, which in turn helps us to match the speed of trees – or that its easier for us to believe our ears than our eyes. The first part of the pass is definitely about listening to earth connected awareness, while the latter part is all sky and branches.
Both my witness and I felt awkward at first with the exercise, and owing to some skype connection hassles (which were mostly my fault) we had to ad lib somewhat. It was less than ideal but better than nothing in that we both were able to put some shit on the table.
In participating with a tree, I saw something like its energy centre and some very pleasing energy, which appeared something like a very smooth buff hue, but that also came as a command – as don Juan said the nagual Julian saw in terms of. Its harder to express commands somehow; words come to mind: strength and serenity; joy and pride in ones particular form of being – all in a tree way of communing.
Oh, and I just found this; about half way through Lizard Pepper discusses how at damanhur they are experimenting with plant interaction. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p7pe55Rsup8&feature=related
Roots to the earth,
deep in the ground
thank you for holding
our consciousness.
Streching and growing
strengh from the earth
up and arround us
boundaries melting.
Breathing the sunlight
water and minerals
flooding our cells
dreamer we are.
Winds blow through
branch out on you
reaching together
a way of the heart.
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Our group of five went together to a big, old Plane tree (Platanus × acerifolia),
first touching it, we circled arround, then went backwards more and more,
needing maybe more than 40 strides to get a feeling of having all its energy in view.
Someone said that the tree could illuminate the whole area , the towns and landscape arround
with its glow, has lived so many years, has made so much experiences…
has dreamed…
Thank you for your powerful support on our path!
Wish you all much intent and silence
and concious dreams!
I want to thank you all, wonderful tree listeners!
From this meeting, I can’t see trees in the same way. They are so full of vibrant life…They are so brights! And they move light beams to percive the world :)
During the day, when I feel thoughts are going so fast, I extend laterally my arms and I my awareness shift into the slowness . What a wonderful slow, aware listening!
Another change is happening in relationship with the other people… I can’t not see the amazing miracle of listening the others! In a talk there are not only words… words are only a little superficial part of a conversation!
Thank you all, root in present! :)
Thanks so much for the latest online class. It was a true joy to participate in, and I am somewhat overwhelmed by trying to put into words the affection I feel.
I feel a special word of thanks is needed for the discussion of the assemblage point. It is always so reinforcing to hear about small movements of the assemblage point and their corresponding view point/mood. I have found over the last couple of classes myself using deep belly breathing to elicit a change in view point to great success. I had been using this technique less and less (perhaps the assemblage point sliding to a more habitual spot: ME!) so I was so thankful to get a reminder. Also, after doing the tree listening assignment I’m beginning to think that the same movement of the assemblage point can be achieved by listening as well. In fact it seems that looking can do the same sort of thing. The thing that they all seem to have in common when I’m able to employ them is my attention. By placing as much of my attention as I can on any given sense I create a movement in my mood/feeling. Part of this is probably due to the decrease in internal dialogue that occurs at times of greatest attention. Thank you so much for suggesting that I listen for an hour!! It was a true delight and very useful to track from a nonjudgmental “data” aspect.
Best regards,
Jesse
Dear listening friends!
It was intresting experience to work with witness. The part there we should repeat exaktly word by word what has been told required from one to be very focused. Otherwise if you not listening properly hole sentence gott other meaning. What I want to say is that; if we do not listening the story get another meaning, that is colored by our personality.
In my story I discovered that, when I listening I can preserve my energy, I am in present state. If I do not listening my energy gets drained, or if I pretend to listen.
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I have always have contact with this beautiful silent being. Every time I need innerpeace I try to get me near on tree or trees. They could help me to fing my innersilnce. Just to think about tree helps me grounding.
After our visit to tree on my way home I sow some people sitting around a tree in the park. It was not sunny and they
did not need a shadow, it was not rainy so they did not need protection from rain. They just sat there and enjoy themselfs. The best place for as humans is to gather around and under tree. With help from trees vi can found our ways back to ourselfs to our hearts.
Love to all!
Had a great morning at Cleargreen Studios with the Listening to the Trees online class. It was great connecting with other beings from around the world and sharing with them the energy web of silence and connecting to the tree beings. I liked how we witnessed with our partner and how we mirrored our dialogue for one another. It brought awareness to what we say and how we interact with other beings and how our bodies react. That whole mind, body, spirit connection is so important and it’s so easy to forget when our emotions carry us away from our sobriety. I enjoyed the connection of this exercise to going outside to be with the trees. I had a small tree get my attention and it told me that it had hard beginnings setting it’s roots down. I could see the trunks sprawled out like they had problems finding it’s way down to some solid earth below. I could sense that it may have been very rocky below the surface. Although, there were problems setting down roots the tree seemed to say that even though there were hard beginnings “we” needed to now go “light and happy”. That became my theme for the week. Even when my internal dialogue riled up with self importance I would take a breath and do a tree pass and the feeling of “light and happy” would enter into my being beginning with my feet until I could feel to the top of my head. I could feel the silence and the peace coming from that place. Even when other beings want me to get caught up in their space and time I felt it was alright for me to slow down the energy to a more treelike energy. It’s amazing how that turns things around. I am finding it’s okay to go slow or slower. Happy tree form and thank you for bringing this class to all of us!
Dieser Web Workshop war eine besondere Erfahrung für mich. Das erste Mal zusammen mit einem Praktizierenden und mit bewusster Unterstützung der Bäume. Während des Workshops fing plötzlich ein Gewitter an und ich konnte beobachten, wie der Baum auf den ich aus dem Fenster guckte, angefeuert vom Wind, zu tanzen anfing. Meinem Zeugen habe ich dann eine Szene vorgetragen, wo ich eigentlich nicht besonders viel erkennen konnte oder wollte. Mein Zeuge hatte allerdings eine Vermutung, die sich bestimmt zu untersuchen lohnt, weil ich bemerkte, wie ich seine Beobachtung herunterspielen wollte und kurze Zeit später eine Bestätigung für seine Vermutung bekam. Ich werde dieses Thema die nächste Zeit weiter untersuchen. Anfangs wollten wir noch nach dem Workshop in den Wald gehen, zu einem Baum, den wir vorher ausgesucht hatten. Doch dann stellten wir uns auf den Balkon, praktizierten die Baumbewegung und nahmen Kontakt zu dem Baum auf, den wir aus dem Fenster sahen. Es war jetzt schönster Sonnenschein. Kurze Zeit später hatte ich eine veränderte Wahrnehmung. Es sah aus als wären alle Konturen plötzlich flüssig. Ich freute mich darüber und beobachtete dies eine Zeit lang. Dann beschloss ich für und mit dem Baum zu tanzen, was ich bis zum Sonnenuntergang tat. Ich fühlte mich voller Freude und Zuversicht. Danke für diesen wunderschönen Workshop.
Dear everyone,
The tree I met after the session was not close to where I live, so I was unfamiliar to it–unlike the trees around my house, who have had years to observe me and probably know me better than I know myself. Our interaction was thus a new encounter, and I was careful to bring my best feelings to it. This tree was quite tall and more massive. I noticed that many creatures lived in its bark. It was raining, and as I looked up at the tree’s canopy I also noticed that raindrops are spherical as they fell on my face. How curious, that we normally think of raindrops as tear-shaped. And I knew that this tree, as well as all the others around here, adore the rain. I wished the tree a long and healthy life, many times over.
The exercise helped show me how many “tracks” are going on at any given moment beyond what is immediately obvious, and that I can choose what to focus on, as well as how I use my energy in relation to the stimuli… In the few days to follow, I’ve noticed that I can acknowledge and face even things I normally find “disturbing,” without ignoring or judging them, without getting my energy all caught up in it, if I so choose. That is a very liberating feeling.
My thanks and affection to all the trees that have sent me their insights past & present, to my witness for listening, to Cleargreen for the dreaming guidance, and to all of you out there…
Thank you for the tree form. After class my partner and I went out to visit our pear tree, which I have known for 8 years. It has produced bushels of fruit every year, and supports a circle of life that includes raccoons, squirrels, chipmunks, wasps, ants, and people. Last fall it was diagnosed with verticilium rot that starts in the soil but kills the tree from the top down, over a period of time. It is often fatal to the tree but sometimes can be stopped with lots of care.
We asked our tree if we could talk and it agreed. My partner and I seemed to get similar messages about appreciating what time we had left with the tree, how the tree is taken for granted by so many of us, and how it always gives while receiving little in return. As my partner turned away, I continued to gaze at the tree and listen. Suddenly I was overcome with a wave of sadness; so much that I began to cry (something I never do). I had to leave and go off on my own to understand this unexpected emotion.
As I sat for a while in silence I realized that the pear tree had indeed communicated with me, but not on the level I had expected. The messages my partner and I received felt like our own projections, or perhaps our own internal dialog. The pear tree was not feeling sorry for itself; instead it had reached out and touched a well of unexpressed grief that I had been carrying around with me.
Earlier in the Tensegrity class, I remembered many times when I was younger that I had been silenced by male members of my family because they felt I was not important enough to listen to while they were watching TV. I realized I have been taking my revenge subtly over the years by ignoring the men in my life in big and small ways. This also triggered a memory of my mother, who after years of making us dinner every day, refused to cook another meal. We had pizza for Christmas dinner that year, instead of the lavish spread she had always made. It was then I understood that the pear tree knows me, and recognizes I have been carrying a lot of grief for many years. To acknowledge this grief and experience a release, was the message and the gift from the pear tree.
I also experienced an unexplained upsurge of emotions after my experience with the trees. After the class and the days fallowing I had the most intense longings for things that were not even really clear to me. This was followed by anguish. It took me a long time to snap out of it. It seems to point to the need to acknowledge and express ones inner most feelings, desires and dreams in a way that is healthy instead of holding it in your entire life. Today I thought of someone who seems to embody this idea of release through expression well. I was hearing a song that seems be playing everywhere I go and in the media. It was one of the new songs by the “new soul” singer Adele. Her expression of lost love didn’t seem selfish or vane, it seemed to come from deep within, it seemed pure and it was painless because of her ability to express it.
connecting to the WebEx session and to other practitiones by Skype at the same time (for translation)– It took us a while to settle down, but we managed. I ended up not having a witness but still I did go through the steps to get a new view.
On the pre-assignment I noticed how I listen intensly to my boss or other “in power” people (mainly man).
For the class I chose a scene where all my listening attention goes to my boss, who is not even talking to me, and I ignore everything and everybody else. The new view was that so much focus on people on power comes from a place of fear, where I close my heart, and my awareness of the surroundings disappear. This comes from my mum.
I was able to redream the scene and I could feel openess and affection towards my boss, just as I would to other colleages.
So, what’s new?
I can perceive more when bosses/teahers are around and talking, I can be more present and calm :-)
The visit to the tree after the class:
The message was to come back to myself more often; yes, I can do it by visiting a tree, they’re always such a great company!! (Thank you trees!)
Lots of affetion to all of you and thak you ever so much for making this possible!
xxx
The experience with Trees was very pragmatic!
It helped me to connect with the silent trees’ awareness. They are wonderful master of presence.
They can crumble some of my shields, making possible the increase of life’s perception that surround us!
Freedom is here and now, just aknowledge of this… just practice.
It’s powerful and easy. Trees are one of the way to reach the same connection…with the Infinity.
Warms regards.
Andrea
During these 2 hours of the WebEx, I experienced time differently and felt a change of mood and perception, like entering into a dream space, and from a silent place inside myself I got so many insights. As this is a state of being, where I don’t have words and find no necessity to speak or give a structure to my experiences, it is a fascinating effort to bring these moments into words.
At the beginning, we had technical problems with the translation, and I realised that I started to suffer for the translator, for the practitioners, and almost in a feverish mood, I tried to find solutions. And in all this pool of emotions, phone calls, Chat messages, thoughts came to my mind, as to what has to be done now, and the cooperation between all of us connected for translation was so fluid and calm, that finally everything worked. I appreciated also very much the calm and non-judgmental presence of my witness.
Repeating the dialog of my witness and hear my dialog repeated during the witness work created so much affection, by the pure fact to carefully listen and be listened to, and with the intent to find our behaviour patterns. Actually, I found a core scene of my childhood and I saw that my witness also came to see a core scene of his childhood.
And then, I could also see that this mood of profound worry, which I had experienced at the beginning of the class, was not necessary to solve the problems we actually had, and many scenes, where I have seen my mother and my grandmother in this mood came up for me to recognise, to breathe and to return to my calm mood…
Before the WebEx class, I believed that I need to be alone in my room, cut all perceptions out and be fully concentrated in my mind, to do a good translation work, and I was surprised to experience that this time, I felt a connection to everything around me, with my witness, the silent presence of the practitioners via WebEx, seeing and hearing the instructors, the sounds of the street, birds… and the wider my perception became, the keener was my attention AND joy. This experience means a lot to me, as it un-binds a profoundly rooted judgement.
The main road of the Town where I live has huge sycamore trees at both sides. I use to have breakfast in a Café and enter in conversation with the tree, to find a mood of acting for the day.
The evening after the WebEx class, I was just walking down this street with my witness, I sensed the silent and immense presence of the trees above and beside us, the air was vibrating and I felt like floating among them, in joy and presence and everything was beautiful, mysterious and in harmony.
The assignment to listen to the sounds around me, is something, I often apply during my day, and before I sleep. It is beautiful and I recognise how it brings my attention which is fixed on my thoughts to the sensations of my body, into perception.
Such an exciting journey, we share. Thank you for taking us there.
Great class!!:) THAAANKS!
When i went to the tree it immediately sent two electrical charges on the exact spot where my spine is injured. They both streamed down the leg. It felt so magical and healing! Then it gave this green cedar scent that is beyond words!
When i looked up i had another message: it grows its branches on the “crests” of vibratory harmonic waves which layed in proportions or progressions similar to those of proportions between the distances between the planets in the solar system or those of our fingers, joints…
This suddenly brought the sound to the flute Nyei played (i always see green forests and streams when she plays) and it forced me to make connection with another observation learned earlier: when one overblows a pipe/flute, the notes go first to an octave, then start to jump through a prportionate progression.
Connecting those two things the tree made me realise that it is like a tube that resonates and each tree cpecies use specific ‘keypoints’ of energy resonance to grow branches.
Further another image came that revealed that the since the branches (and roots) pierce into infinity, the closest they reach to infinity (beyond linear space/time) the smaller the proportions and size become and the greater the number of these limbs. It was as if it intended maximum ‘contact surface’ with infinity the closest to the periphery of the tree regardless of the size of the recepticles…
Then this, as if in a chain of realisations, made me remember about a supressed scientist who discovered that earth antenas work far better than air antenas for radio reception/transmition. He then proceeded to hookan antena to a tree and got very strong transmition/reception over great distances. He couldn’t understand how this worked but speculated about earth’s energy lines being in direct interplay with the tree. He found out that this worked better when the wires were hooked to a specific hight of the tree-trunk.
He then experimented with metal antenae burried in the ground and found that it worked really well if he cast the antena with the shape of branch/root. Straight rod as in air-antena didn’t work well. He concluded that it only worked well when the antena had ‘maximum surface’ of contact with the earth: the antena started with single rod that branched into smaller, proportionate subdivisions: …just as our friends roots, branches, our legs, feet, arms & fingers…
Doing the passes afterwords had great energizing effect as well as soothing/calming effect because of their slow-down pottential. Since the class i do them every night and often this practice makes me assemble something which i can call ‘another plane’: different mood, different being to meet, different feeling, situations…all of these slightly out of the ordinary routine, with really strange and subtle scent to it…
PS the kidneys too really like this breathing, they take from the ground and feel more full of energy: these two ears of our midsection!
interesting article that appeared on the 19th August and is about a 13 year-old who explored some notions mentioned in the letter above:
http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/3lx8qm/inhabitat.com/13-year-old-makes-solar-power-breakthrough-by-harnessing-the-fibonacci-sequence/
I originally wrote most of this a few days after the class but decided not to share it because I had written it in a very emotional state which I didn’t seem to have any perspective on. Then I read another persons posting that helped me understand that some of what I was going through was the effect of coming in contact with the awareness of the trees. She to reported a unexpected serge/release of grief from this experience.
On Sunday at work I made an interesting observation about how I listen when someone is giving a long set of instructions. Our boss was giving us all the instructions and details about the dinner service we were going to put on that night. I noticed that I wanted to sort of scan the the information coming from him to pick out the important parts so I could ignore the stuff I thought I already new. Of course this method doesn’t work because you never know when the important information is going to come in.
I also realized that I am not remembering peoples names because in the brief moment when they tell me there name I am not fully listening, instead I am thinking of something charming or clever to say or I am thinking of all the other people who are telling me there names.
But really listening to each and every word is not that difficult if only you are relaxed. I would like to experiment by seeing if, instead of trying to think of how I will remember the information someone is giving me, or trying to ask the right questions, I just simply remain present and receptive to each and every word. I suspect that if I can do that I will remember much better.
I experienced an unexpected result from the class, which is that I found my self consumed by the most intense longings for opportunities missed and perhaps something greater. It started when I left the class. In class there were three ladies about my age whom I realized I had never spoken to even though I have been with them in almost every class for over a year. One of them even made several attempts to talk to me but I always brushed her off. I knew I had avoided them because I am awkward with women my age and I wanted to avoid any of those uncomfortable feelings of attraction and courtship while in class. But before class I decide if I saw any of them I should just introduce my self to see what they are like. At the end of the class all three of them were standing together and I realized how easy it would be to just walk over and say hello, but I kept putting it off until finally I decided it was time to go. On the way out the door I felt overcome by a sort of exaggerated anguish for not having the bravery to simply approach the group of ladies. It seems silly and unimportant now but at that moment it seemed like I missed the most important thing in the world.
The next day I woke up feeling longings for an infinite amount of things: all the dreams unfulfilled, all the people who I couldn’t connect with because I don’t know how to act, for not finding the women of my dreams, for not seeing all the places in the the world I longed to go and on and on…….
On my walk to the farmers market that morning I felt whatever it is that I am feeling must be something else than the petty little opportunities I missed. I told myself I am indulging in self pity. At the farmers market I noticed there were people setting up booths behind the market to accommodate the overflow of new vendors. I came to a stall were right away I recognized they were selling the most exquisite crystals and mineral formations I have ever seen. There was one formation I had never seen, with sort of silver/white crystals that sparked in all the colors of the rainbow. There was an unassuming old lady siting behind the stall who I sort of ignored at first. One lady next to me who at first I thought was a customer said you can talk to Dorothy over there to get a recommendation of what kind of crystal to get. The old lady said “it is something for your career that you need”. She was right on, for the last year I have been struggling in my career more than anything. Before I new it I was sitting talking to the old lady. I realized that she was some sort of psychic. She was asking me questions about my life as if scanning me. She accurately described things about me that not even people who know me would know. Finally she said “what is going on with that women?”
“What women? I don’t have any women in my life”, I said. She paused and scanned. She realized something and said “you haven’t met her yet. You were supposed to meet her two years ago but because you have a blockage of some kind it hasn’t happened yet. Before you can meet her you have to take care of the blockage. Once you take care of the blockage your issues with your career will also change”. She then described specific details of what the women I am supposed to meet looks like,and that she is very honest and very beautiful, she is two years younger that myself, and we will have two children together.
I walked away feeling in awe of what happened and it seemed to put a cap my unknown longings. Later I began to have doubts, and was uncomfortable with idea of having children because I believed that, that is not the path I want to take. but I couldn’t disregard the event because it seemed to come from the spirit in that it was very out of the ordinary and seemed to happen in a dream like state. I have chosen to regard what the women told me as a mystery that may or may not unfold with time.
After many days of feeling overcome with longings and grief I finally went to sit high up in the branches of a tree and it brought me back to the present, back to myself.
Gentle Giants
I have since gotten to know the trees in my neighborhood well and I feel that it is very easy to merge with them. Although I have not yet had the experience of speaking with the trees I do feel what they feel and they are like giant antennas that I can connect to the universe through. Being it their experience of space and time fully in the present moment at times seems almost scary, and at times feels like the most natural thing.
Thanks.
The webex classes are fantastic! Thanks so much to everyone in LA and world wide and all the sharing on the blog.
It’s interesting to feel, to some degree, a connection to a global community of people focused on the same passes and tracking at the same time!
It’s very likely that the trees haven’t changed, more likely is the perception of them has. Recently I was fortunate to walk to an ocean inlet at night, through a maritime forest and that walk, passing one amazing tree after another, reinforced some kind of greater appreciation, love, awe, joyful sharing of being alive with trees.
This new found affinity feels like it can be simply extended to people and all beings. All beings are unfathomable and equally important and that context helps pave the way to larger views of their total selves.
Big tree hugs all around,
Rich