2011 Oct, Harvesting the Gold – Feedback

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1. constantinec says:

   October 4, 2011 at 3:25 pm

   Dear Cleargreen-Dreamingteam,

   as magical passes teachers it is wonderful to see you acting and facing the public
   without the destructive signs of overdone importance.
   One can feel the intention to focus on the essential aims.
   Give you thanks for that
   and for your sharing of your fight as warriors on the path of heart and dreamers.

   About the experience on the workshop:
   The first scene that came into mind was the childhood memory of an TV-cartoon series called “Nils Holgersson”. It’s about a young boy from a farmer family that becomes bewitched by a gnome, so that is very small. His best friend is a hamster [ :) "Harvesting the Gold", like a hamster harvests the grain in autumn for winter - now there's the association!] and he has a whistle at the end of his red pointed cap. He flys away with the geese (which is also the refrain in the title song). There is a “bad” (?) looking raven also.
   The body position and feeling that camefrom that memory was like: tension, raised vigilance, because of being in an big (and bigger) world, which is dangerous, unpredictable and also wonderful. Running – and a fight for freedom, out of the current situation.

   The next scene that came into awareness, was a scene about two years ago. It was a moment of unforeseen danger for life. Also tension, a pounding heart and raised senses were included. It needed some moments of silence and a cold shower, until running set in.

   After doing the magical passes, the new view on the scenes was that
   it has to do with the wish for experience adventures; to feel alive, to have a “thrill”; to step against the unforeseen.
   I am aligned with my benefactor and companions. That has priority before my egoistic desire for “adventures”. I am thankful and restrain myself. If I practise humility and self-effacement, I may sometime experience the adventures, if my strenght allows it – and if Intention wants it.

   After doing the magical passes again and feeling the connection to the companions and trees arround, the new view on the scenes was:
   We are beholden
   and unbelievable marvelousness is waiting to get discovered.
   Be thankful for each little something of magic,
   little beetles, mosquitoes and moths,
   that we send you as couriers of magic.
   Talk to them.
   And be vigilant, at day and in the night,
   as you were Nils Holgersson, in a large, dangerous world,
   as you were there, death on your side.
   The miracles of these worlds and death
   lurk everywhere and at any time.

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2. movaytine says:

   October 5, 2011 at 1:57 am

   “Solitude is a silent storm that breaks down all our dead branches; yet it sends our living roots deeper into the living heart of the living earth.”
   - Kahlil Gibran

   This was a very pleasant progression from the last classes, and increased by the warm presence and instruction of Teo. At this time, in this part of the Southern hemisphere, there is much of shedding of leaves in the garden from the Spring winds, and soon the gums trees will shed their bark to present their smooth creamy trunks – like a babes skin. The storms are coming as well, but we are ready for them we trees – we will shake and ~~~~ ~whishhhhh~ ~~~ with the sky.

   Also, I have a new job – in charge of the production of the fruits from seventy thousand trees! What a responsibility! What respect to uphold and maintain! It is harvest season this month. The machine will pass over the trees to collect the bean with thrashing combs. It is not as ungentle as it seems, but still rather harsh: then the bean will come to me to be pulped and dried and sorted over months.

   Near the factory is a couple of huge old Moreton Bay fig trees, stunted; if they had of spent their lives in the forest they evolved in they would be very high with a crown above the canopy.
   One of the trees is on a neighbours place. She I haven’t approached. The other is on a lawn, dutifully mowed. It has been difficult to approach. There is something very indifferent and solitary in its nature, but gently it has been slowly welcoming me. Its stories are those of watching, of patience and vigilence. High over the valley it encounters every wind; watches the daily, sometimes disconcerting movements of mammals about it; knows the stars are family. Tolerates silently. There is a huge flat block of cement that has been placed on its raised roots. Its annoying. I have promised to help remove it. I took action today and asked another employee how it got there. He said, proudly, that he put it there: He didn’t know where else to put it and had a brainwave. He said it was used as a sort of tabletop quite a lot, but not so much now. The tractor used to put it there is gone now and none of the others are suitable for moving it… anyway, I’m working on that one.

   But the story of the weight brought me instantly to the story I’ve been tracking of Sun Wukong, The Monkey King: how he was born out of a stone egg. The feeling of shaking, in the tree form from the class, is the feeling of shaking off a little of ‘this mortal coil’ a bit at a time, like chipping away at concrete: shaking my roots to raise the sap for communion and transformation in summer sun, and shaking branches to stimulate the budding of new dreams.

   My maternal Grandfather has been dominate in my personal stories: a working class man with great down-to-earth humour and integrity. He worked in a factory for many years, in charge of maintaining large sowing machines. I resented the idea of being caught for life in such a job, and here am I in the second half of life in a factory – there is even a part of the job that involves using a large hand-held sowing machine to sow hessian bags with! I am tracking key phrases to do with judgements about being caught in mortal toil that is often humiliating; my body posture of a being a factory worker getting out of bed on a steely, dull morning. But we shake, we shake the concrete sky above!… we trees!

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   • movaytine says:

     November 4, 2011 at 2:46 am

     Postscript: The Father of the man who runs the factory came to stay for a few weeks and help me with the harvest. He has been staying in the storage (near the tree I mentioned) with a makeshift home. During a lunch break the other day I noticed he had a detective novel with him for company, called ‘Stone Monkey’.No matter how many times I blinked my eyes I couldn’t believe it: Sun Wukong, the stone monkey I have been tracking is now tracking me!

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3. Branka Rajkovic says:

   October 5, 2011 at 10:41 am

   I want to thank everyone for the last class and the beautiful moods and energy. Also, I want to thank Nyei for her wonderful stories about the tree and how they adapt themselves through out all seasons! My attention has been especily caught by the story of a tree in autumn and winter. I live in a country where the trees are leefless 6-7 months a year and in the same time it is very dark and cold. Sometimes Sun is hidden behind coluds more than a month. This is a very difficult period in this part of the world,I stay inside a lot, which I certainly do not like it .. it makes me depressed. I was always a little afraid of winter coming. From now on I will wear that beautiful picture of dreaming that Nyei shown, what trees doing during the winter, and that’s to be closer to himself and the stars! This is a wonderful and magical movement and I can dream with the movement.
   These photographs are photographs of two trees that I have nearby. This large, which is potted it is almost 2 meters and with me is more than 10 years. I found it by accident in a grocery store, standing in the corner and it was just as big as it is now. I immediately wished to by it becouse it has wonerfull calming effect on me. Tree that heals! I went to dealer and ask what kind of tree is it and how much does it cost? But nobody could find neither the name nor the price of tree? All employees at the store wondered how it got there? It was the only one and they have never sold one of those. And matter what, I wanted to buy it and take it home. I got it very
   cheaply.! Yet, even today, I do not know what kind this tree is? There is another tree just outside the window and that tree bring me much pleasure. I speak to him, it is common that tells me when will it rain:) There are a nest on it! I think it’s certainly a safe tree if the birds come here every year and nest on it. With this tree i listening the wind.

   Thanks again for oportunity to dream with all of you!

   I do not know how to upload pictures of trees that I wrote about.

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4. sirisflower1 says:

   October 6, 2011 at 12:59 am

   Shanti Jamin
   Amsterdam Practice Group

   Dear everybody,

   Thank you for another wonderful class.

   I like the extra remarks Teo gave us on the preparatory passes. Not to do the life saver as if it’s a habit, while you are thinking about other things and with the scoops to feel the subtle movements and from there make the bigger scoops.

   The addition of the shhh sound with the shimmer of the arms for the falling leaves in the tree form, I liked a lot.

   It’s like you can feel how the tree feels when dropping it’s leaves. After the class I had more connection with the falling of the leaves. It was like a magic movement, their falling.

   I liked the suggestion as well to use incence, oil with a tree smell in your home.

   The stalking was more profound than I thought it would be. My favorite movie was “The Dark Crystal” with the main figure a boy, who was very curious all the time, but also alert as if on his toes for everything that would happen around him. He was on a quest to return the lost piece of the dark crystal.

   The scene I remembered from the body position the boy had, eyes big, back straight, breathing accelerated, looking around, brought me to a scene of the beginning time that I lived in St.Maarten. We just moved from the Netherlands there and everything was new. The English they spoke in class was incomprehensible to me at first. I would listen intently to understand what they were saying. At a party they were all dressed up more than I was used to and drank cocktails. I felt like an outsider, but intent on fitting in.

   My new view after doing the tree form again the first time, actually the emotion underneath came up. I noticed that I was sad, because we had just moved there and I had had to say goodbye to the Netherlands. I saw I could give myself more time, I could accept these feelings.

   The second time showed me that the others were very friendly and also I was new for them. They were open to show me around, help me.

   When I connected with the tree, there was silence and the tree would say: you can just be.

   Doing the pass again with music, is the best always. It releases more of tension and is so joyful.

   Thank you, bye

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5. serge8ant says:

   October 6, 2011 at 5:37 am

   Am Anfang war das Tensegrity praktizieren eine Katastrophe für mich. Meine Muskelverspannungen ließen kaum eine Bewegung zu, sodass ich mich erst ärgerte. Dann dachte ich, das ist jetzt so und du kannst das gerade nicht ändern. Also mach so gut wie du kannst und wenn du Pausen brauchst, machst du welche. Das tat ich dann auch und konnte etwas entspannen, obwohl ich im Moment echt Probleme mit dem Praktizieren der Baumform habe. Der Vorteil dabei, ich war so beschäftigt sie auszuführen, dass ich gar keine Zeit mehr für meinen inneren Dialog hatte. Gemerkt habe ich sie mir noch nicht komplett, obwohl sie ja nicht kompliziert ist.

   Die Geschichte, die ich hatte war ein Film namens „Vertraute Fremde“. Er verhalf mir zu mehr Klarheit:

   Ein Mann mittleren Alters gerät durch Unachtsamkeit in den falschen Zug, der ihn zu seinem Kindheitsort bringt. Dort besucht er seine früh verstorbene Mutter. Auf dem Friedhof sieht er einen blauen Schmetterling und plötzlich ist er in die Zeit zurückversetzt, als er ein Jugendlicher war, mit dem Bewusstsein seines tatsächlichen Alters. Jetzt versucht er Einfluss auf die Vergangenheit auszuüben, indem er sein Wissen nutzt um Ereignisse zu verändern. Sein Erlebnis, dass seine Familie, die glücklich war, vom Vater verlassen wurde, wollte er unbedingt verändern, indem er ihn aufhält. Das gelingt ihm jedoch nicht, aber stattdessen bekommt er eine immer umfassendere Sicht über alles und seinen Vater und versucht ihn zu verstehen. Es endet damit, dass er nichts machen kann, um seinen Vater bei der Familie zu halten. Er ist jetzt wieder zurück und steht traurig vor seinem eigenen Haus, wo seine Frau und seine beiden Töchter auf ihn warten, die er kaum sieht, da er viel auf Geschäftsreisen ist. Plötzlich wird ihm klar, dass das was er seinem Vater vorwirft, nicht für die Familie da zu sein, er selbst auch macht. Jetzt freut er sich, da er erkannt hat, dass er es nur im Jetzt ändern kann und nicht in der Vergangenheit. Er geht schnell in sein Haus und begrüßt freudig seine Familie.

   Der Film hatte so ein Aha Effekt auf mich, dass er meine Sichtweise zur Rekapitulation veränderte. Obwohl ich vom Verstand her wusste, dass es unmöglich ist die Vergangenheit zu ändern, war ich immer versucht es trotzdem zu tun. Und da mir das nicht gelang, konnte ich mich toll als Opfer fühlen und mich beklagen, anstatt den Mut aufzubringen mich nüchtern selbst zu betrachten und entsprechend zu handeln.

   In einer Akupunktur Sitzung wollte ich visualisieren, wie ich loslasse, anstatt zu kämpfen. Dabei fiel mir ein Erlebnis ein. Ich lag auf meinem Balkon und las. Plötzlich landete eine Amsel mit ihrem Jungen auf dem Balkongeländer. Ich war total überrascht, so wie die beiden Vögel auch, sodass die Mutter wegflog und nur noch ihr Junges mir gegenübersaß. Ich war regungslos, um den Kleinen, der wohl seine erste Flugstunde hatte und starr vor Angst war, nicht noch mehr zu ängstigen. Ich konnte seinen rasenden Herzschlag sehen und wusste nicht was ich machen sollte, nachdem die Situation schon eine ganze Zeit lang dauerte. Ich dachte mir, so kann es nicht bleiben, es muss etwas geschehen, sonst kollabiert der Kleine und ich bewegte mich. Sofort ließ der kleine Vogel sich rückwärts vom Balkongeländer fallen und flog weg.
   Die Situation hat mir gezeigt, wie man loslässt und vertraut. Die Bäume waren Zeugen.

   Als ich mit den Pappeln in der Nähe meiner Wohnung Kontakt aufnahm, regnete es und es war windig. Ich dachte daran, dass jetzt wieder die kalte Jahreszeit kommt. Einige Blätter sind schon gelb. Dann wurde ich traurig, weil ich ein halbes Jahr auf ihren Klang verzichten muss. Die Antwort die ich bekam war, dass es für sie eine schöne Zeit ist. Der Abschluss eines Zyklus, bei dem sie noch einmal Regen und Wind im Überfluss bekommen und sich tanzend in die Erde zurückziehen. Das freute mich und ich lachte vor Freude. In einem Buch las ich später, dass es die Zeit ist, in der die Bäume nach der Phase des Ausdrucks, in die Phase des Eindrucks gehen und beginnen aufzunehmen und neue Eindrücke zu verarbeiten, die von den Sternen und anderen Wesen kommen.

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6. estrellapapalot says:

   October 6, 2011 at 3:25 pm

   Paqui. Grupo de práctica de Sevilla.
   !Gracias! por esta clase y por la “conexión ” tan grande que he sentido en todo momento. Mi afecto por todos los que estamos en esta aventura www crece por día y se multiplica como las hojas del inmenso “árbol” que vive en unos jardines cerca de casa y que muchos días me permite sentarme junto a él a platicar desde el silencio.
   Me gustó un montón practicar el Pase del Árbol, Teo llegó a ser un auténtico roble y hasta se escuchaba el viento moviendo sus ramas y el agua corriendo por sus raices.
   La historia que traje a la clase es la de la protagonista de una película francesa titulada “La llave de Sara”. Sara, una niña de unos 8 años, esconde a su hermano de 3 años en un armario para evitar que la policia de ocupación alemana se lo llevase, ella se queda con la llave del armario, Los padres y la niña son deportados primero a un estadio y posteriormente a un campo de concentración. En este lugar Sara se queda sola y todo su intento está en escapar, regresar a Paris y sacar a su hermano del escondite, Tiene un propósito inflexible y en conseguirlo pone todo su empeño, incluso su vida…desafía todas las adversidades y llega a París, aunque no a tiempo de salvar al hermano. A partir de este momento la herida queda abierta y le acompañará toda su vida.
   Al trabajar en clase una de las escenas de la película me vino una historia de mi infancia cuando tenía 9 años, mas o menos la edad de Sara. En esta historia un primo pequeño de casi 2 años enferma y muere. Era un niño muy lindo y en las últimas semanas antes de enfermar y morir estuvo viviendo en mi casa.
   Cuando terminó la clase me fuí al “árbol” (una liana) e hice con él el trabajo de acecho. Quedé en silencio, era de noche, las estrellas brillaban y se sentía una cálida brisa nocturna. De pronto algo cambió y sentí dentro de mi, procedente del árbol, una voz diciéndome que una niña no es responsable ni de la vida ni de la muerte de otro niño. Ni fuisteis la causa ni en vosotros estaba la solución. Desde ese instante sentí que un nudo en mí interior se iba deshaciendo. Vi a Sara jugar de nuevo con su hermano y a sus padres con la llave sacándolo vivo del armario. Me vi corriendo por los campos de mi infancia y a mi primo en brazos de sus padres. Y al abrir los ojos percibí el sonido de todo lo que me rodeaba junto al inmenso árbol que vive en unos jardines cerca de casa.
   Ha sido todo un ensueño, un viaje en el espacio y el tiempo…una bocanada de aire fresco.
   Gracias Nyei por tus palabras, gracias Teo , gracias practicantes del planeta Tierra, gracias árboles, viento, pájaros, ….
   Para todos una canción y un abrazo de buenas noches.

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7. nuseers says:

   October 6, 2011 at 7:29 pm

   Hello dear lovely co-dreamers! Thank you for your beautiful dreaming-awake company in this dream-fleet of joined attention that was this class!

   Here i intruduce you to my friend, a cedar tree, may she be your friend and that of your tree friends :D The view is towards south-east:
   http://img508.imageshack.us/img508/9363/eken0018.jpg

   When i asked her for story she didn’t say much and i was just starting to think “how silent this tree is today” when my head turned as if by its own volition (very swiftly!) to two different directions. I didn’t know what to make of this at first but then i noticed that these were the two exact spots where there were two trees from the same species, two younger cedars intermingled amongst other trees some two hundred yards/metrs away–the only other cedars in the park. So i thanked her and though wow, how cool this is!

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8. isaromero says:

   October 9, 2011 at 4:48 am

   I’m deeply very very thankful for this class!!!! Brought me a further understanding of my life and path. Tracking my scene over and over just let me understand from within that my family, having a family is not a barrier, contrary it have helped me a lot to target patterns in my life and encourage me a need to change to become a better example. Since this class, for the first time, I have dreamt all the time with my daughter, is like I have let her come into my dreams.

   My encounter with a Mangrove Tree:
   I sat next to it, feeling moved by the class. I felt the tree and myself different. I asked why he was different and felt a welcome to climb it. I sat on a branch, and many thoughts came about worries as well as planting why not more mangrove trees in the area. I briefly told the tree my movie scene (“Inception” when the main character told the girl, she was dreaming, that we never remember the beginning of a dream) and, then, kind of a conversation developed when suddenly I told him: “I want to see energy, I want to see it because I think it will helped me understand tansegrity” The tree answered: Energy is everywhere, is just there, you are seeing it right now. With his answer, came to my memory a scene from a previous workshop, when at the top of a hill a wonderful wolf guided me to silent my mind and feel the whole valley as one. So I did the same, but this time the view was restricted to only the tree canopy from inside. Sun reflections from the water brightened the leaves and parts of the branches. Water movement, wind flowing, branches vibrating all make this reflection to move from one side to the other. When I silent my mind, the tree told me “you see, there it is”. Just by not doing and being fully present a magic scene appeared: sunlight reflections and bright little dots (like photons) moving intensively in excitement, with an amazing energy, in a rhythmical way. “See, you can see energy” the tree once again told me. At that moment I realized I see it all the time, its just that I’m not aware of it. During my daily routines I let my mind tell me what I see, and how. I realized that when I just don’t do and I’m in silent and present, I can see energy, and seen it is not new because I see it all the time, its with me, every second, every tiny moment in the awareness of the present moment.

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9. svetyslava says:

   October 10, 2011 at 1:13 am

   Дорогие Cleargreen и все участники Класса! Спасибо Вам за соединенность и общность намерения которая чувтсвуется каждый раз во время таких классов!

   Этот класс научил меня еще более глубокому контакту с деревьями и бесконечностью.

   Я исследовала одну историю из глобальной истории которая мне очень понравилась – из книг Калоса Кастанеды. Это те части книг, в которых он описывал свои переходы в другие миры и реальности. Предствляя полежение тела героя истории, который легко переходит из мира в мир я увидела его с уверенной осанкой, грудь вперед, бесстаршно смотрящий вперед увененным взгядом, подбородок приподнят, руки свободно вдоль тела но кулаки поджты. Решительность. Я назвала это положение тела – Пложение тела победителя, преодалевающего преграды восприятия, и который бесстрашно и легко действует где бы но не находился, пусть даже и в других мирах. Внутреннее состояние – спокойствите, решительнотсь, отрешенность.
   Я вспомнила что подобное положени тела и внутреннее состояние бывает у меня когда я выступаю на публике (например так было когда я делала презентацию моего тренинга во время психологического фестиваля, во время защит дипломов и курсовых в институте, на сцене на семинарах Тенсегрити, на акадкемконцертах в музыкальной школе, на соревнованиях по Каратэ. и т.д…). Причем я вспомнила что для меня характерно перед этим очень волноватся…, но когда я уже вышла на сцену или трибуну, мое состояние само по себе резко меняется, я чувтсвую силу, уверенность, отерешнность и спокойствие, голос становится ниже и глубже, и вообще я чувтвую себя очень комфортно и хорошо “как рыба в воде”. Например во время защиты димломной работы мне задавали каверзные вопросы и т.д… но мне так нравилось состояние из которого я отвечала – это было состояние силы и внутренней тишины, что я как-то даже расстроилась когда мне сказали “спасибо – можете садится на место”, … мне хотелось быть там з трибуной и отвечать отвечать еще и еще :)

   Исследуя это положени тела с помощью Пасса Дерева мне пришло понимание что в такие моменты я чувствую бесконечность прямо перед собой.

   Исследуя еще глубже это состояние с помощью Пасса Дерева и еще больше расслабила тело, сделала его более подвижным и текучим покачиваясь из сторны в сторону. Я осознала что до этого я воспринимала героя именно стоящим возле преграды и преодалевающим её силой воли, теперь и вижу что он сам утончаясь (становлясь подвижным, легким и прозрачным энергетически) проскальзаывет сквозь неё.

   Далее мы исследовали историю вместе с деревом, и из этого состояния – ощущения присутвия бесконености передо мной и состояния текучести, легкости и прозрачности, я решила войти в контакт с рощей деревьев в лесу растущем на расстоянии около километра от места где мы практиковали. Я очень легко ощутила их и они мне сказали, что хоть они и статичны, они имеют контакт со всем в этом мире и любой другой точкой бесконечности прямо из этого места. И они поделились со мной этим чувством и находясь в нем я осознала, что по-скольку бесконечность прямо передо мной то и любое место в мире или любой мир тоже сейчас прямо передо мной. Поэтому я могу прямо из любого места где нахожусь переходить в любую точку Вселенной, как и герой истории. …… В этот момент на монироте показывали аудитию Cleargereen и присутвсвовавших там местных практикующих. Мне стало интересно – а как там :) и я из этого нового чувства намерила переместится туда. И тут же ощутила телом что нахожусь уже не в комнате в Киеве. Я ощутила пространство другого помещения, его температурный режим, воздух и звуки, в большей степени это касалось ощущение в теле.

   Я решила внести это мироощущение – присутвия вселенной передо мной и легкость и текучесть в мою повседневнйю жизнь. Для этого я буду практиковать найденное мною новое положение тела и чувство на протяжении дня и засыпая.

   С Большой Любовью!
   Светислава Гетман

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   • irena8 says:

     October 11, 2011 at 2:30 am

     Irina Palei, Kazan Practice Group “Children of the Earth”

     Dear Dreaming Team!! Dear Luminous Beings!!
     Thanks for very deep and rich of new explorations Class!!
     Thanks to many repetitions of the magical passes from Preparation Intent Series performed in the begining of the class I got very energetically saturated state. I found that my perception of time was slow down. I felt that we were practicing for more than one hour, but actually it was only fifteen minutes. Thanks to Teo’s comment about Life Saver I did this pass without any habitual patterns. I enjoyed the movements as in my first time.

     I was tracking the favorite story from my adolescence. It is “Andromeda Nebula” by Ivan Yefremov. I was so impressed by this story, by the heroes and the society they lived that I started dreaming to live “there” and to be as Erg Noor and Niza Tall, the Captain of the Starshipcraft and his Assistant. I was always crying when I was reading the final scene when they leaved the Earth for non-returning journey to the Stars. I was dreaming from all my heart to be on “their place” and travel to stars. But…. I needed to live here in my boring town with my cruel classmates.

     When we were doing the Tree Form with my plant put in the center of my room, I became aware that my plant and “my Tree” outside have strong bonds. And my Tree outside sent the message to me through my plant when I was in my room. They showed me that I decided to identify myself not with “the herous” but with “the loosers”- with whom not to have Power and Courage. I said myself in my elevens: ” I am different. I am not as they are. I have no Power to live such amazing Life. I have no Resources and Associates”.
     The Tree showed that these assertions became my typical inner dialog in many situations of my life. I saw thanks to the Tree the complete Chain of these sitiations forming the fixed groove of my life.

     And I saw the first situation of the Chain. I was about four-year old. We were playing with my younger brother who was about two-year old. I spilt the bottle of the parfume over his head. He started crying and I was laughing at him thinking of it as a play. Our Granny came to us and very strictly said to me:”It is a shame to hurt the “weak” and the “small”!!!” I loved my Granny very-very much. I agreed with her without any questions – ” It is a shame to be Strong and Big and I need to be a part with Weak and Small”

     The Tree told me that all my life from that moment I DON’T ALLOW MYSELF TO BE HUGE AND STRONG. I always shrink myself to “normal” to be accepted by the others.
     And the Tree gave me the example from my personal history when I had different position of the assemblage point when I was Huge and Strong. I recognized that I already had the “new” position and I could enter into it with my open shoulders and my open Heart.
     Two days later on the Class I knew that our friend was passed away. I went to my parent’s contry-house to find Peace and Harmony within after that news. And I saw there that many trees near the road were cutted out to protect the electric lines. My lovely apple-tree was dead too. I took one apple from her and made one bite. I become aware that the apple-tree said to me: ” It is very important to be alive now. It is vital to choose Life and to choose to live on the Earth. Because YOU are GUARDIANS of the EARTH”

     And I recalled the words from the final scene of “Andromeda Nebula”:
     “Long, long ago the Mayas, the red-skinned people of Central America, left behind them a proud and sad inscription. Mven Mass looked around and continued in a louder voice:
     “Thou who will later show thy face here! If thy mind can think thou will ask: ”Who were they?” Ask the dawn, ask the forest, ask the waves, ask the storm, ask Love. Ask the Earth, the Earth of Suffering and the Earth of Love:
     Who are we? – We are the Earth!”

     With LOVE

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10. jemlet says:

    October 13, 2011 at 8:53 am

    Dear Cleargreen and practitioners,

    Deep thanks and affection for another great class! I always look forward to them, and they always seem to exceed my expectations by taking me in an unexpected direction.

    First as to the tensegrity, I really appreciated the warm up movements. I was surprised at how much I sweated! Not saying that I don’t on occasion sweat while doing tensegrity series, but this was full on exercise sweating. It was very invigorating and fun to do passes multiple times when normally I just do them a few times as part of the preparing intent series. Also I would like to express my deep gratitude for being shown the tree form. This latest variant is spectacular, and I am always amazed at the slow down of my mind (not quite a good description of what I feel, but close) after practicing it. It seems to encapsulate a quietude that is very profound.

    I found the tracking exercise to be one of those unexpected twists that I alluded to before. The story that I had identified as a favorite for this class and the last was the movie Fight Club. Last class I had identified some scenes that I loved, and I was prepared to use these same scenes for this class. However, as the new tracking exercise began a new scene popped into my mind. It’s the one where Ed Norton’s character is confronted by his boss because he found a sheet of the fight club rules on the copy machine. Ed Norton then launches into a speech that completely undercuts his boss and renders him impotent, totally turning the table on him. On reflection I’ve always loved this scene and thought it captured some of the tenants of stalking that Carlos Castaneda describes.

    When I tried to apply this scene to my own life I recalled a time when I had a confrontation with an old boss. This boss was a particularly fowl person, very poor interpersonal skills and a massive bully. He had come out of his office to attack me verbally, and then stormed back to his office. I was enraged by his attack and followed him back to the office to say that I was doing everything that I could, to get off my back, and that if he didn’t like it I couldn’t possibly do any more so we should part company right then and there. In my mind at this point of the tracking exercise I saw my self as essentially the same as the Ed Norton character, turning the tables on my horrible boss. A feeling of courageousness, justifiable anger, and righteousness.

    But as the tracking exercise proceeded things began to change in my mind. Especially after looking out at a small maple tree from my window. I saw the wind blowing through the tree shaking its leaves, and a quietness from the magical passes took hold. A thought or realization came to my mind that the wind is a force that can’t be changed just like life’s events, but the tree just lets that force wash over it. It doesn’t try to hold it or stop it, it doesn’t get angry at it, it just bends twists and shakes, but essentially stays unchanged ready for the next gust to come.

    You then asked if any new thoughts about our life’s scene came to mind, and a cascade of thoughts rushed through me. I realized that when I reanalyzed my scene my anger wasn’t at my boss per se, but rather because he was right. I was angered because he correctly pointed out that I wasn’t doing my job adequately, my self importance couldn’t take that attack. I saw my performance at the time as a result of forces outside my control, which was true to a certain point. But I wasn’t treating those outside forces as a challenge, I simply took them good or bad and cursed fate for anything bad and stroked my ego for anything good. I also thought back to all my coworkers who essentially depended on me to make the company a success. I took their hard work for granted as something owed to me. I should have responded in kind and redoubled my efforts to succeed, but at the time I could only find faults with their work as an excuse for my own failures. In short I didn’t take responsibility for my actions.

    I’m trying to shed these leaves… I’m trying to learn the lesson from the tree and not blame the wind…. I’m trying to see life’s wind not as an attack, but as an impersonal force that gives life joyous challenges… I’m trying to bring the gentle quietness of the trees to my own life….

    Thank you all so much for giving me tools to tackle these challenges!!!!

    INTENT!
    Jesse

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    • movaytine says:

      October 15, 2011 at 1:33 am

      Thanks Jesse. That experience with the maple was really phenomenal. I felt just like I was there: Its a strange thing to feel that anything that occurs to us from either within or without is essentially beyond our volition. These stories in our lives are like waves amid the swells of endless oceans; one can’t halt the tiniest ripple from occuring. Yet in another sense we ARE these tiny ripples and vast oceans

      and we have intended all that is about us!

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11. mikhalskaya says:

    October 14, 2011 at 4:18 pm

    Hello dearest Tree-dreamers!
    Thanks to all of you for deep silence and common dream! Thank you Nyei and Teo!
    Every class is so inspiring and helps to feel connection with trees deeper and deeper.
    When the time to find the story came I realized that I`ve got the story on which I don`t like to look at. At once I felt this story is too much about me and I don`t want to accept it. And only because of Nyei said about mind which always judge and try to find something better I “allow this story to remain”.
    This is the movie “Sara”. Leon is hired to be the bodyguard of a local mobster’s daughter Sara. They fall deeply in love with each other, but there are obstacles that stand in their way. They hide their love, knowing that if Sara’s father finds out he really will kill Leon.
    She dreams and builds the world for herself, she rush in love with a head forgetting about “rules”. At the beginning he just does his job, but she interprets this as a sympathy and started to dream by this way and soon they become lovers. At the end she is forced to made a choice between two man – father and Leon.
    I took the position of joy and love: fully relaxed and light body, deep beath, gentle smile, flying movements. I dream myself light, playful and charming. I am happy! Life is so beautiful!
    On the other hand I realized that all my “loves” were taboo and therefore should be hidden. Deep inside I felt guilty and I had stuck breathing, raised shoulders, tensed muscles of face accompained with inner dialog “I do something really wrong. I don`t have to do it, but I can`t so I have to hide it…”
    Practicing of the Tree form helped me to made steps from dream to dream. And in every dream my energy body came closer and closer.
    First step: I have heard soft voice which said: Sweet heart, it is just happens, accept it.
    Second step: The sun is shining and there is a blue sky around me, and the world is full of joy, I feel such a joy in my Heart, this joy fills me…And fears are just fears… If you are open and filled with true joy, if you percieve this world as magical and if you feel yourself as a part of this miracle – could it bring a pain to anyone?
    Third step: I remembered the tree that gifted me peace and silence more than six years ago… Emotions are not so strong and important now. From silence all these “loves” are just spectacles that played out in front of eyes of Being who is in peace and silence. There is NO point in trying to solve any “task” from the mind. From silence and from energy body everything is different and the main thing is GET OUT there!
    Now I feel how extraordinary dreamers – trees support me and ready to help me to enter into silence each moment. And I really like to bring silence in my daily life.
    I am so greatful to all beings for this expirience!
    Thanks a lot!

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12. lusora says:

    October 20, 2011 at 10:37 am

    Hello dear creators of this work:
    In this class I experienced an unusual sense of balance between my left and right sides. As if each one was rooted, when we were doing the warming Passes. This new feeling from that day is turning into a new sense of being alive as an individual. Maybe the trees are transmiting what is it for them the awareness of their essence. And a little bit further the taste of being free.

    With affection

    Lucia

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